I decided you know now that my kids both FINALLY fell asleep that I would update the blog....it might make me feel better. So far all I really want to do is cry!
I just want to lose it! On my kids, my husband, life in general. I don't try to put up a front. Our family/lives are far from perfect. What I do try to do is be positive with whatever comes my way. Take the good with the bad, deal with it and move on. Like everyone right?
Well today, just is one of those days where I want to throw my hands up and say screw life and run as far as possible. Now lets be real I wouldn't do that (although I sure my husband wouldn't mind some days!)
Why is life so frustrating today well let me start with the second we got up this morning everyone was in a negative mood. I have expressed how I feel when someone is telling you something they want to do or their goals or aspirations DO NOT COME AT THEM WITH NEGATIVITY!!!! Well that just so happened in our house this morning and I let it set the mood for the day. By the time I feed/get everyone else ready...well I know its an inconvenience but I NEED TO EAT TOO! By the time I get changed myself, make some breakfast Kypton as said about 5000 times...."It's time to go outside, I want to go outside." OMG shoot me! I get it kid as soon as I'm decent we will go outside. By the time we get outside and play for an hour it's time for Kenzlie to nap. Before she would go to sleep just fine if we put her in her room. Yah, all of a sudden this week nope that isn't going to happen that would be too easy! I have to take her inside rock her until she falls asleep it would go 10Xs faster if Kypton wouldn't freak out the whole time yelling and screaming that he wants to go outside! YES SON I HEAR YOU!!! As soon as I get her to sleep we go out for another hour, Kypton is ready for lunch then to sleep. Then Kenzlie is awake ready to eat and play! All the while I don't get SHIT accomplished!
No my house is a mess, I cleaned on sunday that should count for something right? WRONG! The house is a mess, there is a bazillion items that need hung up, laundry that needs to be done, dishes washed, and homework completed! Yet NONE gets done. Trust me I get to hear about it most days I just let it go in and out. Today...nope NOT TODAY....I don't want to hear it or even get a notion that it is bothering anyone!!!! IM FED UP!!!
For all those that think stay at home Moms have it so easy....yahhh today would not be the day to meet me in a dark alley....
I love my kids, I love being able to stay home, I am blessed to be able to stay home...does that make life any easier? No. Does that make life less complicated? No. I will be the 1st to admit I wanted to be the one to stay with the kids, do all the housework, do the meals yada yada but life isn't rainbows and unicorns now is it?!?!
So what was the final straw that sent me into this awesome post for the day with all my beautiful colors hanging out? NAP TIME!! I had a midterm to do. Kypton went down fine, Kenzlie on the other hand wanted to throw a fit because she couldn't crawl, wanted to throw a fit because she couldn't get sat up, then wanted to throw a fit every time I took her blanket off her face while she fell asleep. All the while I am doing a timed midterm. Needless to say it didn't go as planned...life happened...
Cheers with a protein shake that I am wishing was a GIANT MARGARITA!
ps they are both sleeping peacefully now...(of course, right?)
I will leave you with some photos as of recent:
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